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19 January 2006 @ 10:31 am
Too much time on my hands  
Had yesterday and today off school still feel like crap, all my muscles ahe like mad i just want to sleep. I remember when i used to want to stay at home all day but you don't realise how boring it can be. I've decided to do something not very Lauren like, im going to delve into the world of witchcraft. I've always been interested in it but never had the guts but now i think what have i got to lose.
Got my planning head on today, i might not have a lot of strength but i'll be damned if im bed ridden today, i need to do something. Im going out of my head in boredom.
My mom said i need to make some more friends and get out into the world instea of being cooped up in the house, she said i should get a job or somthing which i ssuppose is true, it's just i don't know how to do it. I've been to a girls school for over 5 years now and i've grown used to having lads as boyfriends and girls as friends, so how exactly do i make new ones.
Keep having these really strange dreams and don't like them, i see myself peering through a door listening to all my friends gathered in a circle bitching about me and now it's playing on my mind. So it's making me determined to succeed now. When im better im going to go out and make the most of life. Im tired of being paranoid and worried all the time, not to mention depressed constantly, im going to meet new people and have a great time. I've got a party to go to soon perhaps i'll meet some people there who knows?
All i know is that having all this time off has given me somethings to think about.
Current Mood: accomplished
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